Peejay's Ponderings: The lead up...

...to 2008

I don't use all the features on this blog that I pay for so am thinking I might transfer to a freebie blog and save myself some $$$.

So, for that reason, I'll sort out up to now and then I can have the content published in a blurb book to cover 2006 and 2007 - like a journal and then start afresh and have all of 2008 in the same place.

Let me see, it's been awhile since I last posted so this might be rather lengthy.

Around the time of my last post, I was having some difficulty living with my decision to keep seeing Alex despite his promises that he wanted to move forward with me and was going to sort things out with his wife. While everyone kept telling me I didn't create the situation and wasn't at fault, I found that by ignoring my own principles and being involved in a lie (until he had told his wife) made me feel very negative toward myself...and it showed in my mood and behaviour. I was not nice to be around anymore and even I wanted to get away from me. I took stock of the situation and made some decisions that have empowered me to move on one way or the other. In the next couple of weeks, I will know what path I am to take and that (as heartbreaking as it may be) is a huge positive.

On to other things.

Sad - A couple of weeks before Christmas, we found our cat Crookshanks under the house crying. he'd been missing for a couple of days and the kids heard him. I met them at the vets and he was in a bad way. Unfortunately, whilst the vet worked really hard, he died with us. It was very sad.

Turns out it was a blocked bladder which is very common in cats who are fed dry food. I thought it was better to feed them dry as long as they had plenty of water but it seems that it has to be the vet stuff and not supermarket stuff as it's bad for them. We brought him home and buried him and said a prayer. The other cats really miss him...as do we, he was a real smoocher.

A week later, we received a card from the vet in sympathy for Crooky and hoping we were coping OK. It was lovely. Although Courtney opened it and started bawling.

The next weekend, that really windy Saturday saw my shed relocated half way up the backyard on it's roof. It was too windy to move it anywhere so it was tethered and kept getting battered by the wind. It's gone to shed heaven now but the stuff it was protecting is now exposed on a lovely concrete slab.

Then, the Saturday after Christmas, I visited the girls at the RW Barn and, after a lovely night, was driving Wendy home along a dark country road when we saw two possums sitting in the middle of the road. It was too late to do anything and a car was coming the other way and I hit them both. I felt sick. I pulled up and then did a U turn to go back. Wendy wasn't real keen on the idea but I couldn't just leave them there. When I got back, one of them was definitely dead so I moved him to the side of the road. The other one was injured but conscious so I wrapped her in a blanket to take her to someone who could help.

To cut a long story short, noone could help until the morning so she stayed with me in the Tower (Alex spent two weeks over Christmas in Singapore and said I could stay at his place with the aircon if I wanted) until I could get her to the Lort Smith Animal Hospital in the morning. Unfortunately, when I took her in, the vet examination showed she had spinal injuries and she had to be put down. I felt awful.

Some people said they wouldn't have stopped but I cannot fathom that kind of thinking. I don't understand how people could leave an injured animal to die so painfully. Had I left them where they were hit, some other car/truck would have run over them squashing them on the road. How awful would that have been especially for the one that was injured. Poor things.

Things have improved though, I hope I've had my hat trick of horror.

I had a lovely Christmas day spent with family. The best part was watching my two nephews 3 and 5, enjoying the Christmas spirit and delighting in their presents.

New Years was spent hiding in the airconditioned Tower with Wendy, Pete, Dan, Marc and his mate Ian watching the fireworks. They were lovely and it was a nice end to the year.

I hope everyone has a great 2008. I'm certainly looking for some big things to happen this year.

Cheers

Comments

Huge hugs to you Pam, you have been through so much in a short space of time! Stay true to what you believe to be right and believe in yourself! Sorry to hear about your cat and the possoms too :( How lovely of the vet to send the card!
Take care
Jen H

Posted by: Jen H | January 10, 2008 at 07:39 PM