Peejay's Ponderings

The scrappers habitat

hilarious.   Very clever dh he is.

The Mum (Mom)

Soovee sent this in an email.   It is hilarious and totally deserving of the standing ovation she received.

For some reason the code won't embed so I've put the link in instead.

[EDIT] My son told me how to embed properly, so thses should all embed fine now [/EDIT]

Moving right along...

...because that's what you have to do.  Life doesn't wait around to let us wallow in blissful happiness or hearbreaking  sorrow, so we get dragged along for awhile and then have to pick ourselves up and move with purpose.

Of course, that doesn't mean life will be a bed of roses as I move forward (well maybe thorny ones) and it doesn't mean I don't fall in a heap from time to time - nothing is that simple - but, with the support of my family and  friends, I have been able to make some decisions that have helped me look forward.

One way forward is to focus on the practicalities.  First of all there is my photography.  Both my course and my business (link in sidebar).   Out of the thousands of people that saw my work at Paperific, I heard one negative comment which didn't relate to the quality of the photographs but that there were images of young children on display in public ( btw, I did get permission to display all the photos).  I'm not sure what this person thought of the hundreds of personal layouts displayed around the place featuring children (even naked ones).   They probably needed their heart pills by the end of it.

Seriously though, I got some wonderful feedback which I hope turns into work.  Just have to wait and see.

Oh, if you're checking out my website, keep in mind it was a bit of a rush  job as we had this wizz bang site organised that did all sorts of cool things but the code didn't agree with my site and it was fraught with problems.  So we went for a very simple approach just to get it up and will work on the rest as we go.

Next thing I'm working on is my back.   I've followed all my doctors instructions and my progress has been soooooo slow.  My mortgage is starting to quiver in it's boots so I NEED to get back to work soon.  I've decided to start looking at some alternative therapies in the hope  of managing it better and losing weight.  On the one hand the gain in weight is making my back worse but on the other hand, not being able to be as active as I used to be is causing me to gain weight.  There has to be an  answer and I'm on the trail to find it.

Next comes my scrapping.   I have done maybe...4 layouts this year! That's disgusting and I want to fix it.   I love to scrap - not just the creative side of it but the social aspect as well.   So, I'm off to dear Wendy's on Friday to try and find my mojo again.  Hopefully, I will in time for the Remember When VSK Getaway over Cup weekend.

Last, but certainly  not least is  my  focus on loved ones - all of them.   It's easy to neglect family and friends when life is motoring along smoothly and  only turn to them when you hit the bumpy parts.   While I'm usually pretty good at keeping in contact, sometimes time just gets away so I'm thinking about ways to make sure I balance it a little better.

Nothing mind blowing there but I'm doing OK.

Am flat out atm working on collating surveys and photos from Paperific so don't really have much else to report.

Cheers

Not what they seem

Life is still an emotional rollercoaster but I've managed to get through two whole days (not consecutively though) with my eyes only misting and not full on bawling.    I've lost a couple of kilos but it is definitely fluid  loss from all the tears.

Situations like this really make me wonder just how much of what goes on around me is true and how much is 'put-on' for the benefit of others and maniplulating what we believe.

Found this (sort of) humourous clip on  You Tube (gotta find some way to divert my attention from my misery) which kind of supports my mind space atm

Initially, when this all happened, I had decided to defer the official start of my photography business but I've been given a great promotional opportunity at Paperific that has forced me to reevaluate and move at lightening speed into action or miss out.  I offered the opportunity to them after an inspiring phone call from the lovely Raylene who did more than she will ever know to boost my confidence and  make me realise that I don't have to actually become the 'reject' that I've been made to feel.   Thanks Rayles.

Anyway, Stacey, from Paperific thought my offer was of mutual benefit so it's full steam ahead.  Nothing like leaving everything until the last 2 weeks to push someone to the edge (or in my case, save someone from the edge).

While each day gets a little easier to manage, the evenings are still torture as this was when I spent most of my time with Alex.   It is hard to get my head around the necessary change in my routine...and address.  Alex and I are still talking and I don't know whether that makes it easier or harder.   We were best friends beyond everything else so I've copped a double whammy.   I thought that, maybe, we could remain friends as he wishes, but his trip home to Singapore (to face the music there) this weekend has revealed a whole other set of emotions and insecurities.   While it is difficult to imagine my life  without him in it - It is also difficult to imagine him in my life and not being allowed to love him...

I wish I knew the rules and that there were simple answers to my questions. 

My kids have been amazing through this all.   They are wonderful people and know how to get a smile out of their mum.  I knew there was a reason I love them so dearly.

For those of you who are going to Paperific next weekend, I might see you there.